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I worked today..and yeah..I guess thats about it. For today. I think I will blog more after my exam tomoro and saturday, and after the Brats Charity Carnival which will be on Sunday at 10am.
Please be there and donate to PICU.
Or be square.
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Currently Watching Top Gun By Tom Cruise, Kelly McGillis, Val Kilmer, Anthony Edwards see related |
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I just watched City of Angels on TV. Watching Seth, so able, so willing to give up all he had (and all he ever knew) just to have the ability to feel.
What would you give up for the chance to feel anything you want, and what would you want to feel?
I dont know what I would be willing to give up, but I know what I want.
To go back in time.
Why, I dont know. Back to my high school days, to feel the happiness, see the smiles, hear the laughter,…to be me once more. If only I had the power.
Would I choose her as a friend this time around?
I dont know. Part of me wants to go through all the times we had again, have fun again,…and if it happens again, I’ll try not to question myself too much.
The other part says to me..since I do have the power, why not just let go? Pretend it (the friendship, the sisterhood) never happened. Since I already know the outcome, why change the future?
But then again,..back to the main reason. I want to go back in time to feel. To be happy with myself. And it wouldnt be the same if I chose choice #2.
Cause then I wouldnt be me, would I then?
“I’d rather have
One breath of her hair
One kiss of her mouth
One touch of her hand
Than eternity without it
One”
-Nicholas Cage as Seth in City of Angels-
Or maybe I would just give it all up not to feel. Especially this rotten about her.
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Currently Watching City of Angels By Nicolas Cage, Meg Ryan see related |
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Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
It isn’t Love, it’s Like.
You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn’t Love, it’s Lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn’t Love, it’s Luck.
Do you want them because you know they’re there?
It isn’t Love, it’s Loneliness.
Are you there because it’s what everyone wants?
It isn’t Love, it’s Loyalty.
Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don’t want to hurt them?
It isn’t Love, it’s Pity.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn’t Love, it’s being Unconfident.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn’t Love, it’s Infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn’t Love, it’s Friendship.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn’t Love, it’s a Lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn’t Love, it’s Charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad?
Then it’s Love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it’s Love.
Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are?
Then it’s Love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong?
Then it’s Love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it’s Love.
But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
Then it’s Love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it’s Love.
Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it’s…
LOVE
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Currently Playing The Best of Olivia Newton-John By Olivia Newton-John see related |
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Here is a public apology announcement:-
I hereby seek the forgiveness of my lovely, kind and charming hubby, for being such a pain in the derriere (did I spell that right? Oh well, ‘the rear’ then,same pronunciation!) this few days. Oh..make that the whole week.
I’m really sorry honey..call it PMS induced stress if you want, but dun stop being the absolute sweetheart you areee….=) I LOVE YOU!
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Currently Reading Switcheroo : A Novel By Olivia Goldsmith see related |
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So..I typed up the letter, left in on the whiteboard for my parents, and guess what?
I returned home to icy cold stares and door slammings. Mum is not talking to me.
Didnt have any dinner last night, just went into my room at eight pm and stayed there till this morning. I was even early to college!
I hate this.
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Ow. Only after I read someone’s Assuntarian Survey taken from me, I now know what the person feels about me. Right on.
Jo. You meant me didnt you. All through high school you were my closest friend, the one I’d remember forever. Little did I know this is the real way you feel about me. “Thank you very much,” I may now say, but heck, you noe i dun mean thank you. Of all ppl I expected this from, the last was from you.
What made high school most memorable and such an enlightening experience for me were my friends. Not just everyone, no. Just my gang. I loved me, my school and my memories because of my FRIENDS.
Yet today sad to say, Ive found out, I have no friends.
How utterly and horribly sad. FUCK it.
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I did it. I typed out a two paged letter to my parents, asking for acceptance of Desmond Ong into my family. Now my fingers are crossed, and I hope for the best. Im placing it on the table or whiteboard tomorrow morning, if I have the guts to.
*God Bless Me Please*
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You know what? I really, really love my baby. Being with him is awesome, every minute of it…its been a year and one month now..it just seems like yesterday..
Sure, we’ve had our ups and downs, our failures, but with each step we take, our Love grows stronger..aihhhh Im just soooo in Love!
I Love You darling!
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It has been a boring week, got so much to let you guys noe but havent the time to blog as of yet, I’m so sorry, stay tuned though, see you all asap!
